so i must give myself some kudos. up until now i've always only had one bikini for the summer. and one bikini i wore two summers straight. decided to switch it up since i will b takn multiple pics from various water parks and beach trips from this very excited summer i plan on having. neeed some excitingg swimwear to go with do cha think? and i got my lil miss match thing goin on too.



:) :) :) B L 0 W E D


i've decided .

today i've come to the conclusion that something is mentally not completely right with me.

[i kno...probably not the best thing to admit to, but who do u kno who is sane 100%?]

my point exactly.

well its not like im crazypsycho [yes.one word.] or anything.

my decision about my "mental disorder" is ADHD.


i've noticed the older the i get the more impatient i get. i have like zero patience for anything or anyone.

doesnt take long for me to start averting my attention to someone or something else.

my mind stays wondering. its hard for me to focus for long periods on time. especially on somethin im not interestd in doing to begin w. ANYTHING will get my attention and keep it...until i find somethin that is more captivating than wat i am currently focused on.

it was really bothering me today at wrk 'nd me and my co-wrks were joking about it so i decided to come home and take a online test....[psych central.com


oh nothin...jus checkn out this post from ur cell phone crap....if this posts then it wrks. :)

i miss them.

comeback J.E.


grr. i thought about him today

which always suxx cuz that turns into a continuous stream of "thinking of him"

wep....i kno

best fren was ovr and we ended up on fckn myspace

btw.i really hate myspace [`nd fckn twitter.bullshit]

i was curious to see who was in my "FAVORITES" b.cuz i forgot.

i normally only check my messages and comments and bounce

but like a dummy i went to my favorites jus curious if he had updated his page

he did

nothin special jus a new default pic and some extra nonsense =]

checkd his comments...bunch of party invites.bullshit

except for a few flirty comments

im not jealous.

im ovr him.


"he" and "i" will nvr be "us" and "we"


"day `nd night im always the same. not ready for those words bcuz this isnt a game. no way i'll evr admit it. only guilty cuz i didnt do it. today isnt the same as last week but life was different way back then. misunderstood then but now maybe its seen i was only preparing myself for t`day cuz i learn`d my lesson a long time ago."

[ . T H E . E N D . ]


Fckn Easter


the only day yu'll catch EVERY0NE 'nd they momma at church.

'nd they make sure to wear their sundays best...jus so they can show off a bit.



this is gettin out of hand

so ystrday im at work.

boo =[

so anyway like 4 girls barely in high school come lolly gaggin in
and my co-wrkr tells me that she over heard them talkn about how one of the girls is pregnant.

like wo000000w

they were super young only like in ninth or tenth grade at the MOST
and your pregnant like wtf.

how are u gonna have a baby and yo ass havent even passed the CAHSEE? [ california high school exit exam.]

i see so many young girls having babies in high school now its ridiculous.


keeps gettin younger and younger.

i wonder wat the world will be like in 30 years?

u kno waay bk in the day they couldnt even show couples sleeping in the same bed on tv but now we can see bow wow nutz on tv. damn.


how'd u do that?

im still kinda in shock...


Siren Songs

Siren Song

This is the one song everyone
would like to learn: the song
that is irresistible:

the song that forces men
to leap overboard in squadrons
even though they see beached skulls

the song nobody knows
because anyone who had heard it
is dead, and the others can’t remember.
Shall I tell you the secret
and if I do, will you get me
out of this bird suit?
I don’t enjoy it here
squatting on this island
looking picturesque and mythical
with these two feathery maniacs,
I don’t enjoy singing
this trio, fatal and valuable.

I will tell the secret to you,
to you, only to you.
Come closer. This song

is a cry for help: Help me!
Only you, only you can,
you are unique

at last. Alas
it is a boring song
but it works every time

written by Dennis P. Hardwell